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When I’m on the depression side

Everything is empty

I wanted so badly to be happy

I wanted to love you deeply

I wanted to be free with you

I don’t see a way out

A way back to CA

To live tried to build but failed

My only freedom was in my paintings

In my photography

In my performances

And now I’m stuck

Begging to be loved

Begging to feel real

Begging to be happy

And the worst part is

I would have been okay

With you fucking up

My life